It’s a question I’ve had to ask myself lately.
In my head, yes. Of course I believe God is good.
But sometimes my heart isn’t as readily agreeable as my head.
I think sometimes, I fall into the trap of gauging God’s goodness based on the circumstances of the moment.
He heals a sick loved one.
He restores a marriage.
He blesses someone with a child.
He gives us the dream we’ve been chasing.
And God. Is. Good!
But what about when the loved one dies or the marriage ends or the child doesn’t come or we never catch the dream?
Do we still declare Him good then?
What happens when that thing we’ve been praying and praying and praying for with the kind of prayers that give us callused knees and hoarse voices and dried-up tear ducts…what happens when God says no to that prayer?
I can hear Him whisper “Will you believe that I am good even if I don’t give you this?”
Whatever this is, this thing we grasp to our chest with knuckles as white as bone.
It’s a scary thought, isn’t it?
Ready for a truth moment–one that might wallop you as much as it’s been walloping me?
Perhaps the level of fear this particular question induces says much about the heart of our worship.
Are we worshiping God?
Or are we worshiping what God might give us?
It’s like that book by Dr. Seuss, How the Grinch Stole Christmas.
All the whos in Whoville are Christmas-crazy.
They love the presents and the food and the decorations and the goodies.
But then the Grinch steal everything.
And what happens?
The Whos join hands and lift their voices and celebrate anyway.
Because they know that Christmas itself is worth celebrating.
It’s inherently good, even without all the trappings.
Christmas itself brings joy. The rest is all extra.
So what about us….do we have that same understanding of God?
Can we open our fist and hold up our this, knowing He’s good if He hands it back and He’s good if He doesn’t?
Let’s Talk: What is your this? Has it become more important than God in your life?