I was wondering. What in the world does a gal write for the first post of a new year? Desperate for an idea, I dug through the archives and read last year’s New Year’s post. It made me smile. I borrowed a concept from Tamika’s blog about giving each year of our lives a theme.
I gave 2009 a theme and predicted 2010’s theme would be Victory (ha, ha).
But really, I had no idea what 2010’s theme would be and I said I’d have to get back to you in 2011. So here it is, 2011. This is me getting back to you.
To be honest, I struggled with this one. A lot happened in 2010.
My son turned two. Ryan and I celebrated our 6-year anniversary. I started my fourth year of teaching. I wrote two more books. I learned what life was like as an agented, unpublished writer on submission. I waited a lot. A whole, whole lot. I went to my second writing conference. And then the year ended with a bang. A happy bang, if you will.
But most importantly, God taught me some major lessons. Like how to be still. How to trust. How to surrender. I surrendered over and over again, until I realized that I was surrendering with half my heart, using it as a bargaining chip with God. Like, maybe if I surrender this dream, then God will give it to me. Until finally I got to this place. This scary, but wonderful place. Where I truly let it go. Where I realized that maybe publication isn’t the point. Maybe creating and trusting and growing is. I never stopped hoping. I just stopped holding.
So my 2010 theme is…
Surrender.
As for 2011. I’m predicting…
Anticipation.
But really, who knows? I’ll just have to get back to you next year.
Let’s Talk: If you had to give 2010 a theme, what would it be? What would you like or what do you think your 2011 theme will be?
