Insanity.
That would be the best word to describe what it’s like preparing for the release of my debut novel.
Sure, I’m also in the throes of planning a large fundraising event for our adoption, which is a whole other box of crazy. But still….
Insanity.
Completely fun, substantially stressful insanity.
Filled with highs….
- Encouraging emails from readers
- Hearing that Wildflowers will be sold in select Sam’s Clubs
- Working with some really great women on an online launch party of epic proportions
- Sharing an incredibly exciting time with such a supportive group of friends and family
- Emailing and chatting with my amazing marketing director, Amy Haddock
A few lows….
- Panicking about spoilers. I’m pretty much over this now, but it did induce hyperventilation at first.
- Getting my first bad review. I thought I had thicker skin. But nope, I don’t. Being a people-pleaser and an author is not a good combination. I’ve never been too good at shaking things off. Especially words.
- Total insecurity over book two. You’d think the positive reviews would boost my confidence, right? They do. I appreciate every single one. But they also totally wig me out. Because what if I let everybody down with my next book?
And mostly, the daily grind…
- Finishing book 2 so I could send it off to my fabulous editor
- Writing blog posts and interviews and guest posts
- Mailing out ARCs
- Staying on top of emails and welcome pack sign ups (I love sending these out! You can sign up by scrolling down and looking left.)
- Driving around to local bookstores and churches to hand out bookmarks and postcards
- Preparing for a launch party at Books-A-Million
- Spreading the word about book signings in Minneapolis
- Brainstorming and trying new things, like the Wildflowers from Winter blog hop
The other day, I was chatting online with Erica Vetsch about the craziness and she said:
All the details are like getting nibbled by ducks.
I had to laugh because it’s very true. I think I’m on top of everything and then all of sudden, it’s like, “Ow! Shoot, okay, I have to do that…” And then, “Ow! Shoot, okay, there’s that over there.” And then, “Ow! Dang it, I can’t forget about that.”
It’s funny. I’m living my dream, you know? For so long, I’ve wanted to get a book published.
Now that it’s happening, I have to remind myself to take a deep breath and soak it in.
The whole thing reminds me of this quote from Felicity (any old-school Felicity fans out there?).
She and Ruby are talking about this boy Felicity followed to New York City. His name’s Ben and he ends up falling in love with her.
Ruby says, “How many girls get to date their fantasy?”
And Felicity says, “Fantasies are beautiful and shallow. The actual relationship is a whole different thing.”
Me thinks those are some wise words.
Fantasy and reality are never the same.
Reality is deeper and better, but also….more real.
With rough spots and low spots and inglorious spots interspersed with awesome spots and happy spots and a whole lot of this-is-hard-work spots.
It’s a crazy, sometimes overwhelming ride.
One that requires a large quantity of grace (I’m pretty good at extending grace toward others, not the best at extending it toward myself) and a large quantity of organization.
A ride I wouldn’t trade for the world.
Let’s Talk: Give me an inside look at your life right now. What are some highs? What are some lows? What is your daily grind?